Sunday, May 10, 2009

before i was a mom

Mothers day this year created much sadness in my heart along with pure joy. We went to visit grandma's grave on Saturday to take her some flowers. All morning I told Brady that we were going to take Gee Gee flowers. As we were driving out of the cemetary he said "Bye Bye Gee Gee, flowers." I started to cry. She would have given anything to hear him say her name. So Gee Gee I hope you were listening that morning. I miss you so much I hope you had a wonderful mothers day in heaven watching all of us.

On a happier note.......... carleen forwarded this great poem to me I absolutely love it because it truly expresses how I feel as a mother. The author is not listed on what I got or I would post that as well, whoever it is they must be a mother!

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom,
I slept as late as I wanted
And never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot words of lullabies.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations

Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on
Pooped on
Spit on
Chewed on
Peed on
Or pinched by tiny fingers

Before I was a Mom I had complete control of:
My thoughts
My body
And my mind.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
Could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay
I had never known the warmth
The joy
The love
The heartache
The wonder
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Happy Mothers Day to all the mothers out there. How truly blessed we are to have the most important job in the world!

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